Paths

Sometimes i will have moments where i really think about the steps that i should take, where its like crossing a river on rocks, and the paths of rocks split up and slowly get further and further from each other, wrong steps or hesitant steps could cause me to fall in the water. Designer? Musician? Businessman? Arts & Entertainment? Guess its more than two paths. Hope i will grow as i go, to handle situations and people to move onward.

And getting there, its easier than maintaining there, so i'll need to build up my character as i move along.

Values and Priorities

What i feed will grow, what i don't, won't. Simple, yet hard to achieve. "Like a musician, with discipline, one can show his stuff while others can only watch and admire". I need more discipline, but then, its silly but, i tend to forget things, need someone to remind me! Oh, yea i can write it down, and to do this simple thing i need discipline.

You know, its cool blogging sometimes as it makes you reflect on what's going on, so you can improve.

Change of Season

Was quite a strange day yesterday, another of those that i would waste time wandering 'lost' around. Went to Ourspace @ 72, and did some online quizzes, then went to clubhouse, then went home.

On the way home in the crowded bus, i sat at the last'est' row, middle seat, with nothing in front, and a guy was carrying a file that had lots of handwriting on it. 'i gotta do something about my school' and like, 'love God, love people, love yourself' or something like that. And earlier yesterday some of my classmates were discussing about church and stuff. And it makes me wonder what people really fight for, and their innermost desire and purpose. These acts of 'courage', i would call, really affects me, strangely, in a empowering way.

In my dreams, again

For 3 days i tried so hard to remember, yet now its almost impossible to forget. Been in my dreams for about 3 days now, how to forget?!?

Had the performance yesterday, people who were there were almost all friends, not what i expected, and i didn't perform up to my own expectations.
"这一切,只希望你能听得见"

Pumping Up For The Moment

Tomorrow... 4.45pm... NP Open house, SCC performance. The moment where i use what i have, to spread the feeling of what people call 'beauty', or at least that's what i think. Am quite nervous, as i gotta harmonise a song for Gary, and on top of that, i have to change the effects for Ivy on the keyboard! hehe.

I'll just focus, and leave everything else behind, and to be lost in giving my all.

Being behind the scenes

It was good today that we went to the cerebral palsy centre in pasir ris today to perform for children, because of some Art Of Love event. However, the performance wasn't that good, perhaps due to the sound system, where the vocalists' voices sounded really distant. Also cos there was no sound check.

It didn't feel good, but however, after that, we went for a lunch reception or something, like a catered buffet. Then, we went back to the hall we performed, and surprisingly, the children were having P.E. and playing games. Then came the moment, they were playing musical chairs, and they asked me to play something and stop whenever i liked!! And i played and i sped up, and a boy fell down, then i stopped. Then i did it again, and anoter boy fell down. Goodness haha.. So in total i made one Chinese and one Indian boy fall down. But yea. It was rewarding..

Go on... and on!

Today was certainly a day i would not expect to have.. I.. played.. soccer in the afternoon sun, and now i seem to have red skin. Didn't really enjoy that but i guess its good to have some fun once a while, especially with my class mates.

And after that i went to OurSpace @ 72, a big indoor, air-conditioned compound where people can go.. And so i went to look up the live videos of the Red Hot Chilli Peppers, and i got blown away, seriously BLOWN AWAY, cos they were so good live that it sounded better than their recordings, now that's something i don't see often.

If i really get to make it as an artist someday, i will make sure that live performances will definitely be better than studio recordings.

This is it

If it ain't infatuation, what is it?

The SAG production is over, i feel glad that it was quite a success, and quite honored to be able to be a part of it. It wasn't easy though, seeing how the people practised and practised. Hmm, wonder where do i post the pics i took with my cam.. Yea, but it was great

The days spent with the SAG was quite lonesome for me, cos i had to be alone in a corner, yet it was really rewarding, that i had made a 'friend' for 7 days. This 7 day 'friend' really made me feel like.. appreciated or something, that at least i wasn't forgotten and had a part to play, since the whole production is over, no more already..

Lose Something, Gain Something Else Back

If i lose something, will i gain something back also? Would it be even better? What if i just want the thing that i lost? Seems so foolish and selfish. Yea. Let go if its time to..

I am quite pleased with the drama performance last night, except for some mistakes and errors. When it all ended, i was surprised to actually see people i know in the crowd, except for Fun and Jayson of course, i was super glad to see them:) People were all about congratulating one another, taking photos, but somehow i still felt empty, that something was lacking, something unsettled.

Day 8... And Night

It has been a tiring day for me, and a boring one, wandering about, helpless on what should i do and where should i go. And this is the time where the still small voice in me comes. "Go on..." Like what Hua Qiang screamed, but this is the gentle assuring voice in me that keeps me fighting on, not a battle cry, but more powerful and effective.

And at night, when i thought things cant get any weirder or more awkward... Theft took place, and i wasnt there to do anything about it. It's times like this when i want to do something about it, but cannot. Would i be able to solve the problem? Would i make things worse? I don't know.

My stomach has seemed to recover after dinner tonight, and im just really trying to think wisely, and not do things that i would surely regret, even before doing it.