A Voice You Can Read

Can You Feel It!

2009-09-08T10:43:00.000+08:00

I'll be entering NS on friday!~

Here's something to share!

This post is really new

2009-05-19T15:02:00.002+08:00

After so long, i don't wanna make any comparisons to the earlier posts!

Whenever i feel like posting i guess..

Richie Kotzen and Mr. Big, he's my favourite! This is what i call can sing, play guitar and harmonise!

Broken

2009-02-15T23:21:00.002+08:00

Done! Poly! Free! No more!

So far, its cool as FYP has "ended" and there's no need to go back to school alr! Still got reports and claims to hand in though. SCC concert is also coming up and got to help in the production, once this ends poly life is almost complete:)

Time to train up, lose weight and keep fit!

Time to practice, rehearse and become better at guitar!

Time to break through and use this moments to do what i have always wanted to do, build myself up for next phases of life.

Addrienne's cool

YEA

2008-12-21T01:02:00.001+08:00

YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! Hua Qiang!

Freed

2008-12-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

We've all got 24 hours, and our productivity is greatly determined by how we manage our time. People around me talk about it too, but it's Wilbur who managed to affect me. This made me realise that sometimes its about who we are open to that changes us.

And focusing and spending time on a particular task or assignment might not necessarily be the most productive, most importantly i have to master the skill of knowing what's the most urgent and important to do!

Here's a guy im really inspired to be like, check him out! Ritchie Kotzen:)

More Than This

2008-12-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Its been about 3 weeks into the FYP season for me, and being the final stretch of school life, its actually pretty crucial.

And so pressure has been mounting up in me, and if im not careful, my life would be affected, friends, church, cell group, ushering etc.. And so, yea come to realise once again that life's more than just the FYP. Its important, but nothing compared to what's in store in the future.

Yea, but however, its easy to say all these, but when the time really comes for work and submission you cant help but to realise that you are still under its influence. SO, maintain a positive attitude and just keep moving on!

2008-12-08T02:22:00.003+08:00

Ok, Van advised me to put this up, its some kind of shuffle-the-songs-in-ITunes-for-the-answers thing

Q: How does the world see me?
High Voltage – AC/DC
Q: Will i have a happy life?
No Feeling – Sex Pistols
Q:What do my friends really think of me?
Quick and to the pointless – Queens of the Stone Age
Q:Do people secretly lust after me?
爱过 – F.I.R.
Q:How can i make myself happy?
Guitar and Pen – The Who
Q:What can i do with my life?
I am the Walrus - Beatles

Q:Will i ever have children?
Submission – Sex Pistols
Q:What is some good advice for me?
Run, Pig, Run – Queens of the Stone Age
Q:How will i be remembered?
Clean Breaks – Dashboard Confessional
Q:What is my signature dancing song?
That’s The Way I Wanna Rock ‘N’ Roll – AC/DC
Q:What do i think my current theme song is?
All These Lives – Daughtry
Q:What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Feels So Good – Van Halen
Q:What song will play at my funeral?
Road Trippin – Red Hot Chili Peppers
Q:What sort of men/women do i like?
5’15 – The Who
Q:What is my day going to be like?
You Wont See Me - Beatles

It's amazing, some i shuffled to get a logical answer

Dave Grohl - Inspiration

2008-10-19T00:52:00.002+08:00

He is super awesome, and i really like him!! Watch their videos too!

Wah Wah

2008-09-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

Time to grow!

Time to grow!

And time to grow!

Now i want to grow in the area of time management, to make full use of my time, to juggle between serving as an usher, teaching ppl to play guitar, working at my attachment place, and playing in the band! Im going to have to be more disciplined, and make wise choices! Cant reach home too late. Im going to get a Vox Wah probably, no problem being random as this is a summary of how i've been doing :P

Relief

2008-08-26T00:01:00.001+08:00

Wooo! Guys, I finally got attached!! :)
After days of praying, God has came true for me.
Anyway, i'm going to save up for some stuff: A proper guitar amplifier, proper wah pedal, maybe a semi acoustic. I have been spending alot recently on food, my meals, and food. Have to be more disciplined! Schedule is packing up, i got to learn to handle my time well!

Aiyo Shao Xun

2008-07-27T00:04:00.003+08:00

Aiyo Shao Xun how could you intro me to this?

Dead and Back again

2008-07-14T22:20:00.003+08:00

Nope, im not referring to this blog, as i have not updated it for a noticeable length of time. Its not referring to me too.

My guitar, got baked in the sun on Saturday during our performance at outside the Woodlands there the Civic Plaza, it was in the shade at first, but when the sun rose fully... you know what happened.

And so today during our jam, she didn't respond quite well, the sounds she made sounded muffled, as though she had influenza or something. Of course i was heartbroken. Thoughts raced through my mind.."Is she genuine? I got her for $400 and there are different people selling the the similar guitar for $200 - $300 plus. She didn't look like them too. They were supposed to be of the same model and look. I didn't find her picture on the website." "Was i conned?!?!?" And my heart broke."

After a wonderful dinner with Shao's family i went to check her out again, and she was fine again!!!! WOOOOO! That felt really great, and i knew i had feelings for her. So i am going to name her Addrienne.

Amazing

2008-06-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

This is amazing!
Looks like i won't be so lazy when i post just videos!!

Dexter

2008-06-16T00:22:00.002+08:00

He amazes me, he may exist, or he may not, but this actually shows me how problematic problems can get and yet be solved. And once in a while, many problems springing up one by one could just mean a tougher opponent.

PDAI, BPM, DFM.

Yet the very first opponent i have to overcome is my own mindset.

Slane

2008-05-20T02:47:00.001+08:00

Here, finally got this!!! To think it was 5 years old already. Until i saw this i thought DVDs were only watchable once.

And its been some time since i blogged, its because im lazy, i can be diligent if i want to, its just that laziness is overwhelming. I know im not the only one, so im going to force myself to kick this bad habit!

Lots of homework for this past month, and lots of cool stuff too, got to play at Zi Qin's cousin's wedding, it was awesome, perhaps i'll be a wedding band player or singer someday when i grow up. And once again, i got the Red Hot Chili Peppers - Live At Slane Castle DVD!! WOOOO

Squeezing my head

2008-05-03T22:52:00.003+08:00

On May the 1st, i went with Yong Qiang, my sec school classmate, to Peninsula Plaza there to get him a cap. And i got myself one too, as i was curious on how would it be like to wear something on my head.
I didn't quite like the feeling at first, and didn't understand why certain people wear caps almost all the time. It kind of squeezes my head, or rather, i feel something up there and it limits my view of the sky. But overall, its fun trying out different stuff, since i got rid of my long hair anyway.
Even John Frusciante cuts off his hair every now and then.

Where did the hair go?

2008-04-26T23:49:00.003+08:00

My hair is short now, now i have to adjust, ALOT, to my new (old) hairstyle again. Brings back memories, about how i hated my hair in the past, but now its time to face it. Real scary when i looked at the floor, and the hair on the ground is a few times more than the hair on my head.

"Rejoice at what you gained, instead of mourning on what you lost. Its a balance."
At least i made the world a slightly happier place.

Time is running out

2008-04-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

Finally!! I woke up with a serious headache today, and didn't know why, I worried myself to sleep last night as my guitar was at the clubhouse and they were going to clean the clubhouse this afternoon and i didn't know how. When i woke up, i had a headache.
And just! Just when i typed out the title for this post i remembered my dream, I had three assignments due for this holiday and i didn't have enough time to finish them, that probably gave me the headache.
The assignments, were part of the dream, the headache, was real.
Time is running out. Muse:)

Makes me blow up

2008-03-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

This makes me wanna blow up

Wrenched Heart

2008-03-20T00:08:00.003+08:00

And its me and my weakness again, a salesperson was called while i was working and she spoke to me, so eager to sell her product that she had no idea how was i feeling, how uninterested and annoyed i was. 'So thick skin..', i thought, but somehow i couldn't bear to reject her. She took every opportunity to talk and squeeze in information about her product, that made me feel sorry.

Musical Day

2008-03-15T00:59:00.003+08:00

Its pass 12 so its saturday now, officially been 3 weeks since i got my girl, ha. Will be performing tomorrow, at the red dot museum at Tanjong Pagar, for the project exhibition of the graduating students. Its quite cool to perform though, except for some hiccups along the way like wrong passing down of info, late notifications, last minute changes, inaccurate information, bad service, no respect, casually treated, having no way but to compromise, seen as an obstacle, etc. No, im not angry, just listing what happened out for fun.. ha. Yea but we did not do many things well though, which im quite mad at, putting on airs, acting spoilt..

Enough of that, it has been a musical day, in a sense for me. I reached the clubhouse in the morning and finally got to have some real fun with my multi effects which i just got 3 days ago, i got a display set so it looked shabby but it functioned well. It may be nooby but im glad im finally able to do part of the intro for Sweet Child O Mine! hahaha! yay. It sounded like it, cos of the effects and the nice mixer with the speaker. Then after that was time to shift the equipment, some hiccups occurred, which led to us sitting outside LT73 at level one with all our equipment, which led to us playing noisily with the drums at level 1. Then i got the guitar out to play, and had some fun, and the thin E string broke. After long waiting the transport(equipment transport) people came and took our equipment away. They were interesting though, they all smoked while waiting for their pickup to come, one played with the guitar and another played with the drums! Weird to see these workers doing this, but i was glad they seemed to have fun.

Next, as the transport ppl were equipment transport ppl, we took a cab there, and the driver, was awesome. He asked about what were we going to do and we said perform, and to our surprise, he was quite a good singer, he played the song 黄昏 on a cd and sang along to it, and Steve and I harmonised him, haha, and he told us that he used to be a drummer and he had a band in the past, with his lead guitarist now playing in 黄金年华. He asked about harmonising and was impressed with Steve, and asked us how he sung. He showed us Beyond, and i was impressed with that, cos i heard them before, but the did not sound that great, but this time, i got a little touched emotionally and Steve had goosebumps just hearing to their awesome track.

This is getting long. You might not have read what i wrote above. It was a really tiring day. But it was one really fruitful one.

Point Break

2008-03-06T10:41:00.003+08:00

How far can skills go? Is it too late to start? Dont care! Just start and keep on going. Just have to see where i am going. Been trying out some stuff on my guit, but seems that i cant play fast enough. Really hope the speed will develop through time, just have to visualise myself playing..

Quite stuck, been trying to write a song for the graduating batch of students from my course. 'Just enjoy doing it..' After all, we should have fun in what we do. My style of songs, singing, lyrics.. Would they match with what the lecturers want? Have to play safe to cater to as wide an audience as i can, and a VIP too, I'll not compromise though, just be flexible... I can do it!

Here she comes

2008-02-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

Call it overcoming barriers and odds, especially for a guy who thinks too much, getting a guitar could seem like marrying a girl, or actually asking a girl out(depends on what kind of guy you are like). And im that kind that keeps dragging and procrastinating, considering who to pick, and i realise that getting a guitar, to me, is really choosing the right one that lasts me a long long time.

And finally i got her, she's a Washburn guitar, X series, black in colour(you can see above). Taken by my phone camera, so its nowhere good. Man i was thinking so much about getting a guitar that i didn't think about what to do with it after that, but i've been thinking alot these few days, and many many ideas keep popping up, which is seemingly endless, again. Seek and i shall find! haha..

Woo lots of room to improve

2008-02-19T00:04:00.001+08:00

Still, this is encouraging, for steve to show me this, on the eve of my exam.

Treasure

2008-02-18T00:31:00.002+08:00

Reached home at around 1030pm, and went to bed at 1130pm, and got up again at around 12am, cant seem to really sleep, so i went to check out The Beatles and Nirvana. Yea im a sua ku, cos i was like, really, hearing The Beatles for the first time. Not that i havent heard them before, just that i am listening to them now, taking in what they sing and give. Its something beautiful, probably the carefreeness? or freedom which they sung.

What makes up a song? Give what i got and see what i can make, is what i have learnt from reflecting upon what i did today. To keep moving on.

The Aching Heart & Sorrow

2008-02-12T18:40:00.000+08:00

When i was young, i would look at people and get tears in my eyes for no reason, like i felt sorry for them or sad for them, not for everyone though. Sometimes it was a sad face, sometimes it was their actions, how they move, and sometimes, it was as though they were trying to hide something, which made me feel sad.

It did not come about very often, now that i have grown up and have probably seen more of people, but today i felt it again, for some people, gives me a tugging feeling at my heart, and makes me 'milder' in a way. Like it tames my 'guai lan' nature.

On my own

2008-02-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

After 2 years of poly life, its time i learnt to be independent, again. Its not about pleasing people, but more of being of value to the people around me. A blessing, not an annoyance, or trouble, like that. Reflecting upon the current way i behave, think, and my values, i realised they were completely different from what i used to be 2 years ago. Time to break present self, and piece in the values that i used to believe in. Useless talking, better start before my heart gets hard.

Time to adapt.. again

2008-02-02T10:41:00.000+08:00

BOO! My tail is missing! Now i cant tie no hair like my own.. Just back from the hairdresser, though im not as disappoined as i used to be everytime after a haircut. But the hairdresser said that i can tie my hair, then act act take my hair and keep behind say can tie:( Then on my way home i tried to gather my hair and guess what? No hair there, White Tiger!

Nah but actually i don't mind all of this, the part that's been pissing me off is when i get home. My mum has been spamming me all this while, to cut my hair - THE WAY SHE WANTS IT. So should i? Of course not! If i like it my way, i cut it my way! So am i stubborn? Of course. And she says i don't understand. I know what she wants and i know how i'll kind of look, but i don't want that look, just that. Understand me, ma.

Paths

2008-01-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i will have moments where i really think about the steps that i should take, where its like crossing a river on rocks, and the paths of rocks split up and slowly get further and further from each other, wrong steps or hesitant steps could cause me to fall in the water. Designer? Musician? Businessman? Arts & Entertainment? Guess its more than two paths. Hope i will grow as i go, to handle situations and people to move onward.

And getting there, its easier than maintaining there, so i'll need to build up my character as i move along.

Values and Priorities

2008-01-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

What i feed will grow, what i don't, won't. Simple, yet hard to achieve. "Like a musician, with discipline, one can show his stuff while others can only watch and admire". I need more discipline, but then, its silly but, i tend to forget things, need someone to remind me! Oh, yea i can write it down, and to do this simple thing i need discipline.

You know, its cool blogging sometimes as it makes you reflect on what's going on, so you can improve.

Change of Season

2008-01-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

Was quite a strange day yesterday, another of those that i would waste time wandering 'lost' around. Went to Ourspace @ 72, and did some online quizzes, then went to clubhouse, then went home.

On the way home in the crowded bus, i sat at the last'est' row, middle seat, with nothing in front, and a guy was carrying a file that had lots of handwriting on it. 'i gotta do something about my school' and like, 'love God, love people, love yourself' or something like that. And earlier yesterday some of my classmates were discussing about church and stuff. And it makes me wonder what people really fight for, and their innermost desire and purpose. These acts of 'courage', i would call, really affects me, strangely, in a empowering way.

In my dreams, again

2008-01-18T07:38:00.001+08:00

For 3 days i tried so hard to remember, yet now its almost impossible to forget. Been in my dreams for about 3 days now, how to forget?!?

Had the performance yesterday, people who were there were almost all friends, not what i expected, and i didn't perform up to my own expectations.
"这一切,只希望你能听得见"

Pumping Up For The Moment

2008-01-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow... 4.45pm... NP Open house, SCC performance. The moment where i use what i have, to spread the feeling of what people call 'beauty', or at least that's what i think. Am quite nervous, as i gotta harmonise a song for Gary, and on top of that, i have to change the effects for Ivy on the keyboard! hehe.

I'll just focus, and leave everything else behind, and to be lost in giving my all.

Being behind the scenes

2008-01-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

It was good today that we went to the cerebral palsy centre in pasir ris today to perform for children, because of some Art Of Love event. However, the performance wasn't that good, perhaps due to the sound system, where the vocalists' voices sounded really distant. Also cos there was no sound check.

It didn't feel good, but however, after that, we went for a lunch reception or something, like a catered buffet. Then, we went back to the hall we performed, and surprisingly, the children were having P.E. and playing games. Then came the moment, they were playing musical chairs, and they asked me to play something and stop whenever i liked!! And i played and i sped up, and a boy fell down, then i stopped. Then i did it again, and anoter boy fell down. Goodness haha.. So in total i made one Chinese and one Indian boy fall down. But yea. It was rewarding..

Go on... and on!

2008-01-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today was certainly a day i would not expect to have.. I.. played.. soccer in the afternoon sun, and now i seem to have red skin. Didn't really enjoy that but i guess its good to have some fun once a while, especially with my class mates.

And after that i went to OurSpace @ 72, a big indoor, air-conditioned compound where people can go.. And so i went to look up the live videos of the Red Hot Chilli Peppers, and i got blown away, seriously BLOWN AWAY, cos they were so good live that it sounded better than their recordings, now that's something i don't see often.

If i really get to make it as an artist someday, i will make sure that live performances will definitely be better than studio recordings.

This is it

If it ain't infatuation, what is it?

2008-01-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

The SAG production is over, i feel glad that it was quite a success, and quite honored to be able to be a part of it. It wasn't easy though, seeing how the people practised and practised. Hmm, wonder where do i post the pics i took with my cam.. Yea, but it was great

The days spent with the SAG was quite lonesome for me, cos i had to be alone in a corner, yet it was really rewarding, that i had made a 'friend' for 7 days. This 7 day 'friend' really made me feel like.. appreciated or something, that at least i wasn't forgotten and had a part to play, since the whole production is over, no more already..

Lose Something, Gain Something Else Back

2008-01-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

If i lose something, will i gain something back also? Would it be even better? What if i just want the thing that i lost? Seems so foolish and selfish. Yea. Let go if its time to..

I am quite pleased with the drama performance last night, except for some mistakes and errors. When it all ended, i was surprised to actually see people i know in the crowd, except for Fun and Jayson of course, i was super glad to see them:) People were all about congratulating one another, taking photos, but somehow i still felt empty, that something was lacking, something unsettled.

Day 8... And Night

2008-01-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

It has been a tiring day for me, and a boring one, wandering about, helpless on what should i do and where should i go. And this is the time where the still small voice in me comes. "Go on..." Like what Hua Qiang screamed, but this is the gentle assuring voice in me that keeps me fighting on, not a battle cry, but more powerful and effective.

And at night, when i thought things cant get any weirder or more awkward... Theft took place, and i wasnt there to do anything about it. It's times like this when i want to do something about it, but cannot. Would i be able to solve the problem? Would i make things worse? I don't know.

My stomach has seemed to recover after dinner tonight, and im just really trying to think wisely, and not do things that i would surely regret, even before doing it.